A year ago for the new year 2019, I was moved within to follow an ancient spiritual practice that says "Ask for a Word." This asking is within; it does not look for an answer; it
is about waiting for an answer to appear. The practice is about repeating the request "inside" until the response appears, and you recognize that this is the answer.
word that came to me was "Relinquish." It was clear. I didn't want it. Relinquish what? I waited for that answer too.
As the year progressed I began to notice changes that
I might not have otherwise, and many of them required relinquishing on my part:
-time and energy when my housemate Joan was unable to function for four months with shingles;
- facing the end of my working career with religious Congregations;
- family relationship changes that
left me in grief and long loss;
- extreme energy depletion that severely limited my functioning time each day.
I am still recovering from the relinquishing required during the past year, and though I would not choose the past year over, it rang true for the word I was given on New Year's Day, 2019. And despite it, I asked for a word again on New Years;
Day 2020: it is "Allow" and right behind it "you will be shown." I am attentive to see what this means for the coming year...