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the drawing of Silence

Even as a child, I was drawn by silence, though I didn't know it then. I loved the solitude of reading better than any other activity, and for as long as I remember. When we began to move into the woods for the whole of summer holidays, a new silence attracted me: that of the trees and the ponds and the early mornings when no one else was up.

I look back now and easily trace my attraction to Silence. It played a role in drawing me into religious life at the age of 17, when there were significant and long periods of silence every day in those early years. I loved it - even silent meals. Twice in my life - at 22 and 45 - I entered into the steady silence of the 30-day Ignatian retreat, and without any difficulty at all; in fact, another loving engagement with silence.

Now I am on the downslide of the arc of my life, and after decades of intense outer engagement, activity and travel, I am being slowly drawn back to silence, though this time more deeply, more intensely. I became conscious of it several years ago when I first read Robert Sardello's book called Silence, which I have now read four times, each time bringing me deeper. And a new author (to me), Maggie Ross, an Anglican Solitary in the UK is plunging me into greater depths with her book Silence: a User's Guide.

As I write on this second day of 2017, I am aware of a different manifestation of this inner drawing. I am "unsuscribing" from most of the websites that have given me spiritual food for many years. I have rearranged my reading/writing/contemplative time so that it receives the best energy of my day. I am following an attraction to more emptiness than fullness; more inner receptivity than activity, more presence than doing.

So on this website I have created another page called "Silence." I will be posting quotes and insights of my experience of silence. I/we are at a time in our  history when overwhelm is dominant; when fear and anxiety dominate the news and therefore our days. Entering Silence is more important than it ever was. Listening is more important than speaking. Being present in the heart more important than doing with the head and hands.  

This attraction to silence has been intensifying for about three years, ever since I took a sabbatical year for nothing but listening, reading, writing and being in the forest. A slow intensifying attraction has been growing in me since that time, and I am following it now, in my seventieth year, which is becoming more of a time of inner fulfillment than I ever imagined.                                                                           

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Marge Zulaski | Reply 08.01.2017 13:00

I understand the attraction to Silence and I know how difficult it is to honor the attraction to silence. Thank you for writing your experience.

Sarah | Reply 02.01.2017 13:23

You inspire me. :)

Lee | Reply 02.01.2017 12:41

It is a period of silence for me also and I am grateful that my life was thrown into an unintended silence two years ago.

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04.01 | 14:04

Thanks, Andie...that's it exactly ! So glad you experienced it!

04.01 | 13:36

'Whatever you need
and wherever you go next -
will come to you'
My holiday experience.

28.12 | 10:12

Hi Brenda,
I've just finished reading The Choice - got it from the public library. What an amazing story and an unbeatable spirit. I'll check out youtube now

24.04 | 21:27

Hi Brenda,
I did some writing this last week.
Here is it. :)

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