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RECONSTELLATING

On the afternoon of my last blog posting, JUne 8,  I received a phone call that my brother, 66, had passed away suddenly of cardiac arrest.

I began immediately to let people know at the request of his family. Six hours later, I was making reservations to fly to St. John's in two days.

Now, two months later, I am coming out of that shock and the loss of a second brother in a couple of years. The other was even younger, 59 years old.

It has taken all these weeks of reconstellating the world without my brother. I have felt inner shifting going on, I have felt deep black chasms of loss, I have felt the nearer pull of my own death coming nearer, as it does, every second. I have felt the physical closeness of my two brothers standing behind me, like two wings of guidance and protection.

Death really does erase whatever twistings and turnings a life history has contained. It strips away all the unnecessary past histories, and offers a clean slate of memory burning only with the essence of a person. A soul lives on - in cleansed presence and a small candle flame of light.

 

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01.04 | 20:45

Thanks, Mary Beth...that is how it felt in that moment. And still says with me. Thanks for commenting...

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01.04 | 16:45

Have only peeked into your poeming on Easter Sunday...and lo....feel the paschal mystery, soul'd mystery proclaims Exultet...in a very interior manner! Thanks s

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18.03 | 17:38

Edith is our mentor and prophet for the times she knows we are trying to let go, be freed from whatever impedes growth,goodness and giving!

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14.03 | 19:26

Thank you Brenda for providing this resource. Your selection of books make fine companions on life's path, especially at this time.

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