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I just came across a copy of the "intentional vows" I wrote on New Year's Eve, 2016 and still intend/deepen in 2018. Here I offer to anyone who might welcome a wording of intention in her/his own life at this time:


Intentional Vows, 2017 –




During the past few weeks I have again become aware of the vows I made as a young woman, hardly re-visited, taken for granted. During the past week I have delved into what those vows mean to me now, how they “translate” into my lived reality forty-seven years later. I credit my colleague and friend Diarmuid O’Murchu for his most recent writing on the vows, from which much this expression arises.




Poverty has become for me now a vow of Mutual Sustainability and whatever contributes to it. I make more conscious choices with a sense of the Whole of creation. I practice a contemplative sense of vigilance; I endeavor to unclutter my own life on all levels, not just materially; I study and speak to the forces that exploit and brutalize creation’s resources. I practice living every day in the realization that all around me is gift, and that I am here because of the interdependence within the web of life. Mutual Sustainability translates into Gratitude.




Chastity has become for me now a vow of Relatedness, a vow to Love. This vow moves me towards an intentional engagement with the “foundational eroticism” which is the basis of all emerging life. It is the “creative, divine eroticism in the whole of creation: my body – and all bodies - are Temples of Relatedness: the physical world (cosmos) includes the whole of the Earth, Animals, Humans – and is the Source from which all things arise into being and fall away in its own time.




Obedience has become for me a vow of Mutual Collaboration. Purposefully engaging in practicing silence, solitude, prayer, heart resonance and heart presence, inner emptying and receptivity, study, reflection, speaking and writing, I also invite others of similar searching and values to enter into regular contemplative conversations.  Our intention is to shed the residues that still ensnare us in the wake of centuries of Church and State conditioning that no longer serves the world of today.


From this Contemplative Heart Engagement I commit to a renewed vowed life of inner and exterior speech and action, searching out and collaborating with others of resonant visions, with searching, willing and open hearts, for intensifying Good in our world.


(Through the Mercy of God and Catherine McAuley, in the Circle of Mercy…)




On January 1, 2017, I affirm and invite others to affirm these values and to enter into dialogue with any who wish to cultivate their heart’s longing and their heart’s willingness to closely inquire into self, relationship, communities, and the world itself, fully embracing the paradoxical nature and vision of these vows.




Some visible practices might be:


♥   Embracing gratitude


♥   Keeping promises


♥   Living truthfully


♥   Practising inconvenient hospitality


♥   Interrupting treasured schedules


♥   Deliberately and knowingly stepping past old habits of thinking/doing




Brenda Peddigrew, 31 December 2016




“If all one can do is sit alone


and intend concentration – and fail –


then…the patterns of exchange with friends


will bring that which is needed:


the temenos, the sanctuary,


the protected place of the Mercy.”


(Helen Luke, in Stuff as Dreams are Made of)


I have been thinking about writing here for weeks. I feel my inner life shifting, changing, deepening, and it is not at all accurately describable. Perhaps it is the shifting energy from head to heart. Although I have been practising this for nearly ten years, it is only now that I experience inner changes in values and choices, and it is disorienting at times. Yet - I wouldn't change this journey for any reward.

Being 71 is also a factor. I feel my inner world shake sometimes, like an earthquake, and shoots of insight quickly rushing by like a fast river, before I can catch them. Time is no longer unlimited, and perhaps it is all the richer for that. Time is concentrating itself into richer, clearer choices.

And nature - that rich orchestra of change and presence - intensifies in its manifestations!

Stay tuned for when words arise again!

Is anyone noticing that the world and its heightened threats, turmoils, wars, repetitive hysterical news and cartoon leaders is becoming overwhelming in its demands for attention, for anxiety, for hysteria, for overhwhelming, battering bad news?

My ninety-year old aunt, a news addict if I ever saw one, every day recounts to me all the disasters from wars and murders to abuse of children in day care and the torturing of cats, which - according to her - people are doing again but now getting arrested for it. She is completely addicted, which I often attempt to lead her to see - but impossible it is.

I believe now that such an "addiction" comes from the fear and anxiety that underlines most of our lives in this anxiety-ridden age. But it can do something else, something opening and deepening as well. A point is reached - when you recognize it, when you step back and examine its effects on your own life - when you can make a choice to step out of that daily pounding, repetitive news blast into a chosen time of quiet or even silence; of reading and writing, of listening to music, of turning into the mystery of your own soul - which - believe it or not - need NOT be affected by the outer delirium. In fact, opening the inner doors, is what is demanded of us now. It is where wisdom lives. There are many many paths to that door, but opening it is what's required...

Hi Everyone...I notice that more and more people are visiting this website. May I know a few more of who you are? And perhaps what you are finding that brings you back? A sentence or so would do...I love getting the Friday report of how many have visited; now I am curious as to what you might be finding that brings you back.

I am here using a quote from Mark Nepo in his latest book Things That Join the Sea and Sky:

"Each day I look into the inner galaxy, tracing and mapping what I can." When I look back over the past several weeks, that's what I have been doing most of all, and it is growing and deepening with each day. Opening to and exploring the "inner galaxies" of my own soul...what better work for after the great turning past seventy? How else to leave an imprint on the world in which I perhaps won't even be a memory in twenty years?

And such needed work! The increased madness and dissolution of the world intensifies every day. Andrew Harvey says that "we live in a time of unraveling" and so it looks, increasing and intensifying with each day. Such is where we are, and denying it or avoiding it in any way is to try the impossible; i.e., escaping it. Which we can't.

Instead, the most important of practices now is to be present, to stand in full awareness of where we are in our lives and in the state of the world, and to offer the best we can offer in these transforming times; i.e. offering light and love to every person, every situation, even and especially the ones which irritate us, are cranky and dismissive, are downright frightening, and who challenge us outright. Fill that darkness with your own steady light. Amazing and surprising what it can bring about.



Latest comments

30.07 | 19:22

As someone journeying with people receiving palliative care, I read the article on liminal spaces with much appreciation and resonance. Thank you!

01.04 | 20:45

Thanks, Mary Beth...that is how it felt in that moment. And still says with me. Thanks for commenting...

01.04 | 16:45

Have only peeked into your poeming on Easter Sunday...and lo....feel the paschal mystery, soul'd mystery proclaims a very interior manner! Thanks s

18.03 | 17:38

Edith is our mentor and prophet for the times she knows we are trying to let go, be freed from whatever impedes growth,goodness and giving!