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time protection

I see here that I have not posted since August 24. Really, though I am on sabbatical time, it has been busy, and not in ways I had expected. Changing the focus of my time, releasing tasks and concerns related to work, has not been easy. A restlessness sets in - a habit of doing, a deadline-related urgency, and then - nothing there. Very disconcerting.

I hadn't realized that it would take time to empty my days of scheduled necessities, or - if it had crossed my mind - that it would be so difficult. There is an automatic expectation carved into me from a lifetime of what I lately call time protection; that is, if I am following my busy and urgent schedule, I won't have to look at the things that I am not attending to.

So my daily intention for now is to explore what happens when I give up schedules and plans for any given day. What emerges? What is waiting to be heard and seen? Can I tolerate the disorientation and discomfort until they lessen, until some comfort with whatever emerges in "no planned hours" becomes as valuable as what is included in the planned times?

Meanwhile, I am unsuscribing the daily and weekly emails from  all manner of helpful websites that fill my box every morning. That emptiness alone is a new beginning. More to come...

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03.03 | 17:19

Laurie...I might have my copy and will look for it. Otherwise...order from Amazon.
It is beyond inspiring. I will let you know. It's on kindle too.

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03.03 | 16:53

Hi Brenda, I would like to read The Choice. Where would I find a copy?

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12.02 | 11:09

Your imagery is intensely complimentary to the text deepening an infusion of wisdom. Thank you..

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01.02 | 10:03

I am grateful, Brneda, for your generous encouragement based on your own experience and quests.

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