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time protection

I see here that I have not posted since August 24. Really, though I am on sabbatical time, it has been busy, and not in ways I had expected. Changing the focus of my time, releasing tasks and concerns related to work, has not been easy. A restlessness sets in - a habit of doing, a deadline-related urgency, and then - nothing there. Very disconcerting.

I hadn't realized that it would take time to empty my days of scheduled necessities, or - if it had crossed my mind - that it would be so difficult. There is an automatic expectation carved into me from a lifetime of what I lately call time protection; that is, if I am following my busy and urgent schedule, I won't have to look at the things that I am not attending to.

So my daily intention for now is to explore what happens when I give up schedules and plans for any given day. What emerges? What is waiting to be heard and seen? Can I tolerate the disorientation and discomfort until they lessen, until some comfort with whatever emerges in "no planned hours" becomes as valuable as what is included in the planned times?

Meanwhile, I am unsuscribing the daily and weekly emails from  all manner of helpful websites that fill my box every morning. That emptiness alone is a new beginning. More to come...

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01.04 | 20:45

Thanks, Mary Beth...that is how it felt in that moment. And still says with me. Thanks for commenting...

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01.04 | 16:45

Have only peeked into your poeming on Easter Sunday...and lo....feel the paschal mystery, soul'd mystery proclaims Exultet...in a very interior manner! Thanks s

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18.03 | 17:38

Edith is our mentor and prophet for the times she knows we are trying to let go, be freed from whatever impedes growth,goodness and giving!

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14.03 | 19:26

Thank you Brenda for providing this resource. Your selection of books make fine companions on life's path, especially at this time.

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