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time protection

I see here that I have not posted since August 24. Really, though I am on sabbatical time, it has been busy, and not in ways I had expected. Changing the focus of my time, releasing tasks and concerns related to work, has not been easy. A restlessness sets in - a habit of doing, a deadline-related urgency, and then - nothing there. Very disconcerting.

I hadn't realized that it would take time to empty my days of scheduled necessities, or - if it had crossed my mind - that it would be so difficult. There is an automatic expectation carved into me from a lifetime of what I lately call time protection; that is, if I am following my busy and urgent schedule, I won't have to look at the things that I am not attending to.

So my daily intention for now is to explore what happens when I give up schedules and plans for any given day. What emerges? What is waiting to be heard and seen? Can I tolerate the disorientation and discomfort until they lessen, until some comfort with whatever emerges in "no planned hours" becomes as valuable as what is included in the planned times?

Meanwhile, I am unsuscribing the daily and weekly emails from  all manner of helpful websites that fill my box every morning. That emptiness alone is a new beginning. More to come...

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04.01 | 14:04

Thanks, Andie...that's it exactly ! So glad you experienced it!

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04.01 | 13:36

'Whatever you need
and wherever you go next -
will come to you'
My holiday experience.
Grateful!

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28.12 | 10:12

Hi Brenda,
I've just finished reading The Choice - got it from the public library. What an amazing story and an unbeatable spirit. I'll check out youtube now

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24.04 | 21:27

Hi Brenda,
I did some writing this last week.
Finally!
Here is it. :)

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