During these two busy weeks while I was away from SoulWinds doing some very satisfying work, I have often become aware, while I or someone else is talking, of the difference between knowing about something and knowing it from the inside.
This is particularly true because much of my work is with people who know about a lot of things, educated people, people who make a difference in the world, and are deeply dedicated to doing so. And yet...and yet...what is this difference?
Parker Palmer said many years ago that "The aim of all spiritual paths no matter their origin or the rigors of their practice is to help us live more fully the lives we are given." Noticing this difference has given me pause: what is the life I
am being given now? at soon-to-be 67 years old? And the first answer that comes inside is that the life I am being given now is more intensely inner than outer, noticeably moreso every day. Life inside is intensifying, even as outer capacities diminish.
I am tired of hearing myself say to anyone who will listen: "I just can't get as much done in a day than I used to!"
So the more I pay attention to what is stirring within, the more I can let go the disappointment and frustration of "getting less done
than I used to." Inside is a planet unto itself: swirls of passing insights, releasing of old fixed beliefs, sudden insights blooming like snowdrops, awarenesses that people are never as I used to think; there is so much more to everyone, the more
I realize that there is so much more to myself. Rumi asks a direct question: "And you- when will you begin that long journey into yourself?"
May it be so for you who are reading this:may you find ways to live more from inside
yourself, every day. And may you come to experience that turning-over feeling as you recognize the difference between knowing about something and knowing it from inside yourself.